Competition Saturday

Well the time has come for me to compete. I am feeling really good about the meet and everything I have worked so hard for this and put in extra practice time even with my busy schedule with school and working from 3-11 at night. It takes it's toll on me that's for sure, but this is something I have wanted more than anything and the thought that I am getting there is awesome. I am very proud of my progress although I am an unattached person, basically I am my own coach for now. This meet this weekend is an open meet and it will be held at Mizzou in Columbia, Missouri which I am dying to get into that school, but they are very very competitive in all their sports so I couldn't just apply there I have to wait for that in 2 years. If I wouldn't of dropped track my senior year of school I wouldn't be going through this mess, but it will be worth it. It's not a lose cause to get on a college team, who knows if I am good enough at the competition I could very easily have a coach from some college want me. Which my high school coach says is possibly so who knows. I have to go there with my A game and hope for the best. I have no room to think negatively here, if I do that I might as well not even go to the open meet because I will lose hands down. Tell you one thing after being my own coach and doing things on my own it will be great to know that I won this match on my own with out the help and that's worth more to me right now than having a coach to guide me although I need on now more than ever. On that note I am nervous as all hell. I guess because the college gals will be throwing too, which I know that they would be it, but it just hit me and I'm like oh hell I have to really keep my A game up and prove to them that guess what I am here and I may be unattached but I will be damned if I am gonna let that stop me from winning. Sometimes though I get so frustrated because of the fact that I haven't found that coach to help me 100% but I figure I will find someone soon, it takes time. Ha also this is funny, I went and talked my high school coach although I know that he can't be my coach..boooo...but anyway's I am like so is there any other events I maybe good at for my next open event I can do. Well he's like let's try ya pole vaulting and long jumping and then I hammer throwed although high school doesn't have that. Ok!! Note to self never long jump or any form of jumping again...not only was I long jumping I did triple and I'm like ya this is gonna work. I knew I was a thrower for a reason. After jumping I couldn't feel my legs I was like hell this isn't good....so I'm like I give kudos to any jumper out there keep jumping...so then I went to pole vault that was sweet, but ha not my thing either. It was by far better than jumping...I think my legs are not made for jumping. I about killed them literally they never hurt so bad the next day in my life. Anyway's I stick to my shot put, discus and hammer skills. Ya'll wish me luck on Saturday!!!